another day, another dolla.  holla.

today the kids and i slept in a little bit (it was LOVELY).  and my friend abby came to get them so that i could go by myself to have mom admitted into hospice.  (thank you abby – you are a saint and i adore you!).

i met with the hospice ladies and gave them all mom’s medical history and then we headed over to mom’s room for them to meet her.  she was in a really good mood.  she was witty and funny and made us all laugh.  it was fun.  well… i suppose i use the word “fun” really REALLY loosely.  as fun as it could be when you are admitting your mama into hospice.  <3

i left the admit feeling really relieved that i finally have the help i’ve so desperately needed for the last six months.  i should have gotten hospice involved a long time ago – they are a really great resource and are really helping with pain relief and comfort for mom.  they were great today and gave me a list of things to do – so i’m gonna start checking them off one by one.

i also had a surprise visit from my friend heather who i used to work with at the derby agency.  her and deano brought the most beautiful flowers.  so thoughtful.  and – i’ve fed my poor family wendys and taco bell 6 out of the the last 7 days (ugh… we’re feeling it too… LOL) and tonight we dined on lasagna and cheese bread courtesy of our awesome neighbors jason + kellie.  thanks you guys.  you are amazing.  🙂

mom is still feeling a little angry to be back at highgate but i feel like she is settling in a little bit.  she was able to eat at her table with her friends today (by showing up early) and i think that problem is solved.  and – it’s great motivation for her to get up and out of her room 3 times a day.  so it’s win/win for everyone.

tonight i went and bought her a new swimsuit for her field trip to the hot springs on the highgate bus tomorrow.  i’m hoping and praying she is still feeling good enough to go tomorrow so she can soak her bones in the “medicine water.”  we take what we can get round’ here.

i had a brief moment today where there wasn’t anything to do for mom.  everything was done.  calls were made, to-do list tasks were completed, hospice was brought in and visits were over.  it. was. scary.  i had a second to take off the “i’ve got to get all this crap done so i don’t have time to be sad” hat off and wear the “holy crap my mom is dying” hat.  and my heart broke a little more today.  i pretty quickly found other things to occupy my time.  i’m really REALLY not looking forward to the end end.

all in all though – today was a good day.

until tomorrow, *m