⁶ do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

tonight i am here.  ^  turning my broken heart to jesus and praying over this situation with my whole heart.

first off – i want to thank everyone, again, for reaching out.  for praying – and for keeping us all in your thoughts.

we got to the beach house and it was heaven.  really.  it was so much better than i imagined and than the pictures showed.

but…

it didn’t work out.  despite my best efforts mom just wasn’t happy with the house – or with us.  i’m not going to go into the details – because at the point – they don’t matter.  but the long and the short of it is this:  we are home.  i’m writing from our computer room in montana.

my heart is broken.  it was a whirlwind of a trip.  we flew in – we drove to the beach – all hell broke loose – we stayed one night – we drove back to portland – my family (kev + kids and i) drove back to montana.  just like that.  i didn’t even step foot in the sand – neither did mom. 🙁   i smelled the air – we watched the sun set and rise and then it was over.  (we did get to see whales though.  they were swimming around in our front yard (ie: the pacific ocean) for about three hours yesterday morning and it was ah-mazing).

my fam left portland about 7pm last night and we drove to spokane, spent the night and got up and drove the rest of the way home today.

mom wasn’t sure she was going to come back to montana – but ultimately – there isn’t anyone in portland that can help her.  my aunts both work full time and my grammie is sick and working overtime to take care of herself.  so she will fly in tomorrow afternoon and head back to highgate.  she isn’t happy about it… not one bit.  in fact – she is LIVID.  at us.  at everyone.  but she decided she didn’t want to be at beach and those are the only choices that are available right now.

kev and i just (literally JUST) finished moving her belongings back into her room in the chalet at highgate.  we’ll make it hers tomorrow.

my heart is broken.  i can’t believe things went down the way they did.  i wanted so desperately to give her this one last gift and it just didn’t work.  at. all.  i had no idea it would go anything like it did.  it was completely insane.

i suppose that’s all for now.

i’m going to keep the blog going – even though we’re back.  it’s been a really great way for me to keep people in the know.

thanks again for praying.  please keep us lifted – we need prayers now more than ever.