tonight – we are grateful.
we are grateful to be home – all 4 of us under one roof. we are settling in – trying to establish a new routine in our new situation.
we are grateful to have such amazing people in our lives. so many of you have reached out – and it means SO much. you’ve visited, emailed, called, texted, prayed, mowed our lawn, cleaned our home, brought us meals. we are humbled by the love we’ve felt from the people around us.
kevin is tall… i am not. 🙂 my head rests on directly on his chest and tonight, for the first time since the accident, i was able to put my head on his chest and listen to his heart beat. his steady, strong rhythm has calmed my anxious, sad and tired nerves many times in the last 10 years – but tonight – it was different. i’ve never really listened. as i rested my head there – i thought about sunday night and the fear that rushed over me and how i thought i might not ever hear it again. tears welled in my eyes – for tonight – i am SO grateful that kevin survived this accident. i am SO grateful that he will be there for us. i am SO grateful he will be there as we co-parent these kids as they grow. i’m SO grateful he will sit next to me and hand me a kleenex at their preschool graduation. i’m SO grateful he’ll be the voice of reason when i want to lay down the LAW all over the kids when they get in trouble in high school. i’m SO grateful that i get to usher nora’s first date into the kitchen where he’ll be cleaning his shotgun. i am SO grateful that he’ll be there to hand me a kleenex at their high school graduation. i’m SO grateful he’ll dance with me (really awkwardly) at their weddings. i’m SO grateful he’ll be here with me when they’re grown and gone and it’s just us again. you guys – i’m SO grateful he’s alive. SO eternally grateful.
it’s a scary thing to think about – and to live out – your spouse being in a situation like we were. all the doctors made sure we understood where we’d be if he hadn’t put on his helmet. there is no question he would not have survived and i’d be planning yet another funeral. it makes me sick to even think about it. so i don’t. instead – i tell him, over and over and over, how grateful i am that he put it on.
today kevin started physical therapy. it was tough – but he did fantastic. he’s like the bionic man or something. they had him walking on the treadmill and stretching his legs and abs and working on how not to get a blood clot. his homework is to walk around the mall tomorrow. (woooooot for me! not so much for him… but alas.) lolz.
kev took a couple laps around the kitchen table without his walker today too. yes – already. can you believe it? he’s incredible. and i’m so grateful. oh wait – i already said that, right? 🙂
we also found out that our insurance is awesome. they will be covering 100% of the help flight, 100% of the ER, 90% of the hospital stay, 90% of the CAT/MRI/x-rays and 90% of the doctors visits. and once we hit our out of pocket maximum – they cover the rest. talk about a load off. thank you united healthcare and oracle! what a blessing! <3
we left the hospital yesterday with prescriptions for narcotic pain pills and nausea. kevin has taken neither. in fact – he hasn’t even taken an aspirin or tylenol since we left. he’s so strong. or maybe just crazy. 🙂 he’s working through the pain and learning how to move without aggravating the fractures.
i talked to kev’s boss today and let him know that kev will be returning to work on monday. well – kind of. he’ll be working from home. because kev has a TBI (traumatic brain injury) – he tires VERY easily and has had a little bit of trouble concentrating – so he’s going to start out working a couple hours a day and just see how it goes. he’s already getting kind of restless – laying around isn’t kev’s style and he’s itching to get back to normal as fast as he can. homeboy is bored. and he doesn’t like it. (can anyone say jim sacry?) 🙂
all in all – we had a great day together. and – tomorrow we’ll have another. and for that – i am SO grateful. <3
until tomorrow,
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Love!